If I were to describe myself, bold is not the first adjective that comes to mind. I began dancing at age three but I didn’t perform my first solo until I was seventeen. It took me fourteen years to be able to perform on stage by myself! I loved dancing. I loved competing. In fact I loved the rush of adrenaline when I was standing behind stage waiting to go on, but I loved dancing and competing with the security of others on stage with me.
But this is it—this is the year of boldness for me. So I’ve decided I’m stepping out. Last year a group of us from Joe Bean ventured to Boston to support Ben Turiano in the North East Regional Barista Competition (NERBC). At the NERBC they debuted a new competition—the Cup Tasters Challenge (a cupping competition). My first thought was, “I can do that. It looks fun!” Of course after my first thought came my second thought, “But if I competed, I’d have to stand up and slurp coffee by myself, in front of others.” After much encouragement from my fellow Joe Beanites I decided how to take my first step out—I am going to prepare to compete in a cupping competition. I am going to stand up in front of a group of people and slurp coffee! Why? Because I love to cup coffee! I love taking a big slurp and the coffee just bursting over your tongue! Because I’m good at it.
And, because like I said before, this is the year of boldness for me—I am going to rip off that layer of shyness, that feeling that I’m not talented or knowledgeable enough—though I really am, but I am also doing it for those behind me. For those who are facing this great big world and feeling ill equipped when in fact they have everything they need. To tell them I’ve been there and I did it and you can too.
In my spare time, when I’m not roasting, brewing or slurping coffee, or singing toddler songs, I work with high schoolers. I’ve seen so many of them turn down opportunities because they don’t feel adequate, because they’re afraid of the attention it will give them—even good attention.
Even if I stand up there in front of others and slurp my coffee and don’t do so well, it’s not really about that. It’s about gaining more experience and peeling off another layer that’s just holding me back. It’s about stepping out into life and doing the things I want to do.

